Is it gonna be my love story???? (2)

finally i woke up...ah...what a day! huh...starting with the debate between my heart and my mind...
i work in an advertisement firm...and no matter how rhymed it seems...it is pretty...bore.

i just don't want to go anywhere...i feel like staying in bed...
well, nothing wrong has happened to me...just mood swings i guess.
and with a loud thrash...sophie entered..."whwt the hell are you doing?? now move your asss out of the bed..we need to go

i said-"why? what hapenned?"
sophie-"Clare dumped me, i need to distract my mind"
(and everything was clear to me, they had a fight and she didn't want to show him that she cares, and frankly...in my terms, if this is what we call love, i am better off without it.)

Nora-"how could you let it go so easily?"
Sophie-"you want me to cry for him all day?"
Nora-"no way soph...i love you... i don't want you to cry...but if you really love him, you shouldn't let him go. and now i guess enough of my wisdom lessons, lets go out and have some fun, i am calling off today"

we went to the cafe that is just a few feet from my building gate, its our fun place, no matter what we say,its old, small or whatever...its our favourite hideout from past 3 years. thousands of fights, lacs of peace treaties... tons of crushes, a million heartbreaks... it seems to be the safest place to us. and the best thing is- "good food"
practically speaking, this cafe belongs to me...my father bought  it when he was pretty young, and since then our family is just the owner...its run by "uncle Sam...my favourite man on Earth"
a big person with a even bigger heart...

we sat there on our regular seats...window facing...we can see each and every table in the cafe, and on other side...the road...
staring at people, commenting on them..we just love it.

AAina

Is it gonna be my love story????

My phone was ringing…and this is the only part of the day(morning) I hate my phone…

Frankly, its my only love…its beautiful,smart,helps me in my work, knows calculations…and the most important part…it never lets me yawn…J

No matter where I am, with whom I am, I know I will be fine…if its with me J

And now, at this time, I can call it my biggest enemy…Oh! Please lemme sleep…its just 6’o clock. Well, its not a call…who will call me at this hour…? Its my alarm….

People say you must stay fit…so you need to exercise…but I can never see a relation between both…

You want to stay fit…??? Reduce your intake, and take long beautiful walks…and you will be in love with yourself. J

Anyways once again…I showed my guts…and trned off the alarm…and slept peacefully.

What I can never understand is that…when I leave for work at 9, what’s the point in getting up before 8:15???? yes I need at most 45 minutes and 20 sec to get ready…oh…I forgot to tell…. I am Nora. J

And I live a pretty stupid life(according to my family)… and if you ask me…. I love it J

I get up late…run to work…I am dedicated towards my work…I shop a lot…I hate exercises…but I love going for walksJ

My sister thinks, that I am so much in love with muy life, that i don’t even have time to have a relation…

And I agree, I am in no hurries…its my life…and I am living it to the fullest…

why???

Its 2:00am. Ana is still sitting in her living room with a book in her hand... but her mind is somewhere else. Alex had his interview today…for the job he really desires…and she is desperately waiting for his call.  She wanted to call him herself…but knew well that she must not, considering his bad temper nowadays…

From past few months…he is so cut off…as if he didn’t want to talk anymore…he didn’t want me  anymore…but he promises me that it will be fine soon…he will make things work.I felt so depressed, and guilty… may be Alex is right… I am not good for him anymore… may be I am not that responsible anymore… her friends say that he is not worth this wait…or he is not the one for me…but I know how much he loves me…its just the bad time calling. I know I haven’t been the best supporter in recent times…and  he deserve much better. But I am trying…trying my best…to make him feel loved, cared and trusted.

 But there has to be some way…there are no just two ways…  we are together from three years…the relationship we had…the love we shared… but we have lost everything… but we are still together for old time’s sake…waiting this phase to pass… we are still very much in love…just the demonstration has reduced to null.

But I am sure it will be fine…once got promoted…he is working so hard…but with his father’s business going dumb…he needs to run all the errands.

(phone started ringing)

I saw his name flashing, picking up the phone –“hey baby! Howz u? and how did it go?”

Alex- “I am fine. Got in….”

Ana- “wow… I am so happy for you my love… everything will be fine now… worst is over”

Alex-“Have just reached home, going for a shower. You sleep, I will talk to you tomorrow.”

Ana-“you go and freshen up… eat something, and then call, I want to know how did it go”

Alex-(resigning) “Whatever”

And he disconnected… I don’t know what I did wrong… what’s wrong if I want to know the details…may be he is too tired.

An hour later…I messaged him…”Baby still waiting for your call”

No reply

I messaged-“Good Night Sweetheart… love,ana”

But I couldn’t sleep… I wanted to know what exactly happened…our future depends on this job…

Finally at 4:00 am I called him…

And to my shock…his number was busy.

I called him again and again….and at last he picked after an hour…and then I was feeling like hell…crying as if everything was over. And for me it was. I have everything in my life… cool parents, good job and him… but losing anyone of these is nightmarish.

Ana-“your no was busy…”

Alex-“were you trying to keep a check on my?”

Ana-“I want the answer….whom were you talking to?”

Alex-“you don’t trust me”

Ana-“reply”

Alex-“to Ryan(his friend)”

Ana- “don’t lie…have just received a text from him…- he asked me to put down the phone…so that he can talk to you”

Alex-“I was talking to Sophie(his cousin)”

(trying to be calm) Ana-“Don’t lie… just tell me one thing- ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME”

Alex-“Ana there is nothing like that”

Ana-“REPLY”

Alex-“I AM SORRY ANA”

Ana-“you are not”

Alex-“ I am …I am sorry baby… I love you.”

Ana-“I trusted you….and I am sorry to myself”

And I disconnected.

I got an instant text-“I am sorry baby…this won’t happen again”

Switching off my phone and the lights…I fall on my bed… my heart aching as if someone is tearing it apart…I lay there for don’t know how long.

Have so much to think about….

But the most important-Why????

Why he did so???

I don’t care who she is….because in the end no matter what….he cheated me…my love…my trust.

-Aaina

So what i just love to shop

This post is a part of the contest at BlogAdda.com in association with Snapdeal.com

Today, I had a super exciting day, not for the 23 hours spent with family n friends, but for the 1 hour that made my day. Sometimes I really find it unusual that my excitement or the happiness for the day didn't come through place, place or things, it actually came with an activity, a lovable passion, a desire , and above all- a phenomenon. Yes... A crazy phenomenon :)

As my daily food, when I logged into facebook in the morning, the eyes walked straightaway to a pair of beautiful stilettos that appeared on the page.


I may have fallen in love at the first glance,  may be that's why the only thing I started was googling(sorry surfing). I wonder if the google had a pain killer today for being so glued into my love, for  my continuous search for the variety...

well, frankly speaking i am not like that each day,there are some days when i see something , i like it, i admire it...and i forget about it. Although  there are also the days when I am happier to eat google's head for hours and hours, for searching different stuff across the online stores and then to take a genuine feedback from the buyers.

The road to my craze doesn't end with the selection of stuffs, it actually starts from here to nowhere :):)

i order them...I pay for it. And once this is done, the mind starts its interrogation... It is the inquisitiveness
-What if the size is wrong??
-what if i haven't given the right address?
-have i paid too much??
may be i could get them for some little less amount offline..or at someother store.


Fighting all the odds, answering almost all difficulties, comes the day when the courier boy knocks our door and he has a good looking packet in his hand.


I take it from him, not even bothering to sign the docket properly, i speed to my room, closing the door,  opening the pack... And then finally setting things to try them

i try them on... get 100% satisfied, i go out...show them off to everyone coming in my way... I realize that all the worries during the process have already disappeared somewhere and i am on the seventh heaven :)so isn't it worth spending a few grand...??

there are times when i go to store to buy some stuff and i end up buying the stuff that i have never heard about before,...so what? you want to know how will i use them...ask me...i will give an explanation that you haven't ever heard.
people shop when needed and i shop when i like something..



i go to a store and i take a tour of all the things they have...i love trying new stuff...after all life is the other name for change.




after filling my basket...i think about what i can afford...and at some rare times when i don't have much,then anyone near me can sense my heart break...



 what if i am broke?
what if i lost my job?
what if i can live without the stuff?

still i will shop.


well,
i am thankful to the new technology...but please please someone block these sites from my screen...i know i can afford, still i can't buy...there's so much i need to save for...block them...block them...please someone block them.


i am saving for my future...where i can live my life independently...where i can pay for anything i may need...and then i saw this board...


OH MY GOD...

and here i am, buying stuff again...now it costs less, so why shouldn't i get the varierty... one more- one more...yeah i can afford one more.




coming back home, with bags in my hand...





i feel so good...
happy and satisfied with myself...
lets be happy today....when tomorrow will come, it will also be a present.



so here i am saving a little-little amount...for a future...that i am doubtful about..
but i don't care

because
atleast i am sure that i am happy today...

no matter how many day goes,no wonder how do i react to people, have i enjoyed my day in shopping, i feel i have lived the day
so what if i love to shop???

There was a time

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there was a time...when you need to go out and hung around for absolute everything...no matter what day it is, you were never all weather proof, sometimes even in the hottest day, you had to travel, because you had something special coming and you were made to arrange for it.

As they say, change happens to be the only constant,time really changed,must be sounding like  some fairytale...and it is...everything is so easy... you need a pizza...just cal...or just a few clicks...and you don't have to pay through cash... its like the golden period of shopping..."THE GOLDEN ERA" well...for my best shopping experience...(truely speaking...if the word shopping exists...its my favourite )so... long ago...(365 days back) it was my parent's 25th first marriage anniversary. and my bad luck...i had my first exam on that same day...i was so furious...i wanted to attend it at any cost...but i couldn't...i had given it so much thought...was planning from past 3 months.well...soon i came over my shock... so what if i can't attend...atleast i can make it memorable.so i started torturing google...and finally it gave up...and i had amaster plan...and it executed so well.
it was 14th Feb...my parents anniversary...and sharp at 6 am in the morrning when my mom gets up...there was a knock on the door....she opened the door...and there was a bouquet of roses with two bags...she asked my Dad...(as expected) to see what this all was.and then they together read the note-"HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MA-PA" withlove,AAina." and they opened the packets...and i got a call..."wow beta, we loved these dresses, but these are so fancy..you must remember we are old now :(and my dad chuckles), love you too beta..." and then i called them at 5 pm...to tell-"Oh! i forgot to tell you people, today is Suhani's brother's marriage...please you both go there..."they said "FINE :(" and this time i chuckled...my friend Piya and Sneha reached my home at 7pm...and as a regular habit within talks they forced my parents to wear the dresses i had send...and Sneha needed some stuff so she took my father's caer. and then it was already 9, so,piya asked them to go with her driver,somehow they agreed, and when they came outside..there was a limousine waiting for them...it took them to Taj... and i recieved a call again"Beta, what is this? you have booked for us a limousine and a table in taj??" and i. Just said-"papa you have done everything for me, fulfilled all my wishes and desires...no matter how stupid my desires sound...this is my turn papa...its your day..yours and mumma's...and i want you people to celebrate it...love you both ...enjoy":)That's magical and that's how the technology helps, it facilitates the emotions, the bonds and sometimes it bring backs the magic in us.

she is too young...

you must be thinking...who is too young...
well have just seen this movie...
before saying my views lemme tell what it is about...
this movie is about a girl...a sweet,beautiful 14 year old girl...whose mother is doing everything and anything thing that she can to save her daughter.
actually not saving her but keeping her totally distant from the fears and dangers.

and then one day the most popular guy in school asks her out...
she is happy and with her parent's permission she goes out with him...and he seems to be a perfectly romantic and amazing guy...a guy with whom any girl would love to fall in love with.a combination of sweetness,warmth,politeness and wealth :P.
in the second date he wanted to take it a little far...but the girl didn't want that...so she refuses(she has heard stories about being a playboy)
and then after  a few days...they all had check-ups at school because their classmates are infected by a deadly disease...that is sexually transmitted.
and now this girl is suffered too.
no damage caused because they all have the shots for the disease and they will be fine...as docs have said them.

well this was the boundary line of the movie...
there were so many things that i realized after watching this movie.

well i am really a fan of the girl's parents...especially her mother. people say after some age mother is a daughter's best friend.but most of the mothers fail to this. you know why?
because they forget the first thing about being friends with someone...."you can't be someone's friend just because you think you have to" you need to give them space, so that they don't feel suffocated. yes you care about your child...but atleast...for once...trust yourself...your up-bringing.
hannah's mother is amazing...she loves her so much...she cares for her...and she protects her from everything she can imagine hurting her daughter...but she trust her :)
yes she did a mistake...and both the mother and daughter are devastated...but they still helped each other in understanding,trusting each other :)


the most important thing i realised from this movie...i am pretty sure have seen something similar so many times but today i really noticed it. it is so damn easy for a guy to gain a girl's trust...and you know what is even more easy...to make her go the whole way.
even in this movie...when hannah told a friend of hers about the guy's amazing behaviour, her friend said-may be he really likes you...or may be its his new strategy to...........

well he succeeded. but it doesn't meant that hannah was dumb...it just that all giirls are. we are so emotional, so hungry for love and care that we don't even notice people using us.
may be its just the way we are...or ...reason may be any...

and in the end she met a guy who tells her that he is ready to wait...until they know what they are doing...and are ready for it.
well may be that's just for the sake of a happy ending...
because after  watching this movie and all the other ones like these..i don't think honest people exist :)

and if they do....please mr.director...show that side too...we really need some positivity in our lives.
-Aaina.

What is the freedom about?

Some days back I, along with 120 crore , Indians celebrated our country's independence day. Felt good and free, not because I was running all around the country, but just that my tv was speaking about independence of the nation, for 65 something years.

But , as British guys said - India's real freedom was not from britishers, it was from its people. My insight is not about me, it is an insight of a common women, a jittery of women perturbed by the society, where all where all her freedom is jeopardized by the nasty elements of society.

Watching this movie-'dirty picture' i don't know what these people were trying to tell...there's a girl who is bold enough to do what she wants to...people will say her path was wrong...but who are we to decide?
Can you get inside someone's head and putting yourself in there cast...decide what you would have done.?

Its not just about girls...its about each and every person...
There is one best thing about western culture, people have freedom. Even if our India is free...are we?
I don't think so...we are so tightly tied with the strings of our past...
The problem isn't that we had all these rituals in past...
But the thing is that...we people hate changes.
We are so afraid to let things change...

In our past, girls used to wear...the clothes that won't leave even a sq cm of their flesh uncovered.  is that wrong? I think no...the starting of this must be due to some reason... Or i must say some LOGIC.  but who remember that logic now? No one...still girls must not wear revealing clothes.

Taking this reasoning to next level-
People will say...if you wear shorts, and guys comment...mistake is yours.
May i ask why?
do i comment when some guy is wearing shorts? Okay they got attracted to opposite sex... Why not i do the same?
The reason is just one-he is a guy...
And in this male dominating society...males are Gods.
Gods...who will see each and every girl with piercing eyes...and are ready to kill anyone who did the same to the females in their family.
Gods...who will marry a girl...and will kill their child if its girl.
Why???

Why don't we let our children decide what's good for them?
Why don't we just give them a simple idea...about how the things work....and let them enjoy experimenting with their lives?

why do we have to tell them...what we want from them? Haven't we lived our lives...its their turn...why to interrupt.

Now people will say... Freedom means...children forgetting their values...leaving their family behind...
Is it really the truth?
Temme which one is better- person living away from family, visiting every weekend...sharing the ups and downs.
Secondly...people living together under one roof...not even in talking terms...
Which one will you prefer?

Freedom is never about these boundations.